Tonight I have been attempting to study for my exam. (and failing miserably) I got all the goods: notecards, colored pens, computer, and 28 pages of notes I don't quite comprehend. Oh College; it's such a love hate relationship. I love being here...but the things you do to yourself when you're here are just bad...like pulling this all-nighter, for example.
This year has been an interesting one. It's crazy to think that I am already into my second semester as a junior in college. Time will not slow down. They say as you get older time speeds up on you and right now that statement couldn't be more true.
I have learned a lot being in college. Not so much in the classroom, but more of the person I am becoming. I have learned that I am obsessed with pickles and I am starting to like spicy food. I have learned that I am the type of person that takes on too many things because I want to be apart of everything. I've learned I like to sleep a lot but that I can also function perfectly normal if I just get my butt out of bed. I have learned that best friends are not always people that you have known all of your life and that if you take the time for people that have always been there for you, they will never leave your side. I have experienced heartbreak but not yet love. I have gone through losing someone that I took for granted and I have finally figured out that no matter how hard I try I will always be horrible at math. I have found my faith and lost it, within days later. I have realized I
am extremely blessed and also that I have so much to give. But with all of this, I see that my passions in life are becoming more and more clear every single day.
Life has its ups and downs, the good and the bad. To get me through all of this, I have learned that music is something that is always constant. Never changing, something that I can always turn to. It wakes me up and sings me to sleep, it helps me study and gets me through hard times. It feels, it knows my every mood, my every tribulation in this life. Without it, I don't think I would be who I am. It is, in a sense, a part of me. Now, you may think I sound crazy but clearly, you have never experienced great music.
I have grown up a lot in my time here in college. I say for the better but, some will always say for the worse. I know the type of person I am and what I hold true to myself. I might have slipped up a lot, especially this past year but, without those experiences I would not be the person I am supposed to be. I truly believe everything that happens in your life has some sort of purpose; the people you meet, the places you go, the mistakes you make, they are all apart of something so much bigger that is taking place. I know that in time I will change again, always evolving into what I am supposed to be doing in this life. I know that once I am at the end of my life I will be able to look back and laugh at the good times, cry from the pain, but most importantly smile at all of the memories.
This is your life. You are living it every single day and we take that so much for granted. I challenge you to take a look at your heart and take a look at who you are. Are you happy with yourself? Are you where you want to be? And if the answer is no, change it before life flies by you like a brisk winter breeze, leaving you cold and lost.
